another day, another resume

Went out job hunting yesterday, it was awful! I was handing out my resume like it was candy on Halloween.. I even ran out! Maybe my costume was scaring people, ya know... haggered,middle aged , desperate crazy person! even went to the new Pet Supermarket by Beef O'Brady's in town, they plan on opening soon and were busy stocking shelves..Huh, what a riot...there were many others filling out applications that were at least 25 years younger then me, but all the jobs there were filled anyway, I just filled it out in case someone gets fired the first day or gets mauled by a cuddly Little bunny, hey it can happen, ever see Monty Python?!.YouTube - Monty Python Bunny Scene ..lol...I haven't filled out an application in 20 years...I doubt they would hire me anyway..tooo old!Its pretty bad when you can't even land a job working with a bunch of animals..After all ,I did work at a family practice for 15 years and that was a zoo! I thought about going to the nursing homes but changed my mind, they probably would think I was a new tenant and try checking me in, I saw myself screaming for help as they were wheeling my fat ass down the hall..not a pretty scene, so skip that , plus I hate nursing home smells! yuck! I saw an AD for a retail position at the Florida Mall at Frederick's of Hollywood but the reality of age has set in and even though it would be fun (to some degree) I could see the customers with looks on their faces of "you gotta be kidding "..not good for sales! I can't sell sex, I want a refund!

Find a job you like and you add five days to every week. ~

I went out today with a stack of resumes in search of a job. It is strange to get in the car and really not know where to go. I headed out to the medical office's I knew in the area and then just drove around 'looking'...Looking for what is the question. Surely there wasn't going to be someone standing on a corner with a sign that read " Stacy, this is it".

I have searched the wants ad' and craigslist and online job recruiters and there is little one can do once all avenue's have been exhausted. Most everyone I talked to said the same thing and it was either "we are not hiring right now" or "we are really slow right now but I will keep it on file" . Of course I walked out knowing that it was a huge possibility that my resume was tossed in the trash as soon as I left.

I have decided that middle age sucks..We might have great insights and wisdom, a lengthy resume full of experience and hard work ethics, we show a little wear and tear on the outside but our minds are sharp and because you're probably an empty nester you are no doubt available to work any day, and anytime..The problem is 'they ' just aren't into you'...The young, the beautiful, the strong, the slim and most of all the multi-lingual have the job in the bag..Heck, that usually ends up to be your boss anyway..

Well, I better get back at the hunt. Tomorrow is another day!

"I'm Baaaaaaaaaaaack!"

I have had so many people ask me where I have been lately. Well I had a job for about 2 months with a local Doctor. I had hoped that the job was going to permanent and my days of endless job hunting would be over..It wasn't to be. This was a small office with 2 doctors, one full time and one part time. There was 2 other staff members besides me..Why they wanted another person and why they hired me is still an unanswered question in my mind. I answered an AD from the doctor, had an interview with him at the local hospital and he called me and told me when to come in his office to start work. From my very first day of work it was strange. I walked to the front door and the place was closed and dark, I had to wait outside with the patients for the receptionist to arrive, she was late. When I told her and the nurse I was there to work, they just looked at each other with surprise.They had no idea I was coming, no idea why I was there and no idea what I was to do.....I should have turned around and run right then but I thought it was all rather funny and put my purse away and started in with getting to know the place. It was downhill from there....

All I can say about that job is that it turned out to be the most bizarre office I have ever worked in all my years of employment. And I have been working since I was 14 years old. I sometimes have to ask myself if I am a magnet for the strange and weird. Maybe I am. I worked in chaos, disorganization and strange everyday. I think back and wonder if I should have just stayed there and just overlooked all the bizarre around me for the paycheck, because being without work again is really horrible.BUT....everyone has their limits of what they can endure and eventually they had me working 5-10 hours a week, yep a week. And I ask again, why was I hired? I don't know... soooooo making 50 dollars a week was my final realization that this wasn't the best place for me. ..I did accomplish some necessary cleaning and straightening. I left the bathroom clean ,painted and decorated, threw away trash and broken down machinery, tried to arrange the patient charts in alphabetical order,( notice I said tried ) I cleaned the doctors office so he could walk in there and actually sit at his desk and work. I spent 2 days on my hands and knees, and hours upon hours shredding years of old records. I ended up hurting my left arm and pulling a muscle so badly that it still hurts today. Workman's comp?? lets see..........NOT!..This was an office that the doctor didn't even provide his staff fresh water to drink and a working refrigerator and you think he would have workman's comp?? so I suffer with this pain everyday as a constant reminder of my very strange encounter with a very strange office. The stories I could tell are hilarious to the absurd and everything in between. I don't want to insult anyone (much) so I will just leave it all to your own imaginations, but one day I had to take a temperature on a feverish patient and could not find a thermometer anywhere in the office. I was running around looking for one like a crazy person. The poor sick patient was probably wondering why I was such an idiot..Me too. I ended up borrowing one from the office across the hall..I knew from that point this was going to be a wild ride! Need I say more?? It just got worse after that....

So somewhere out there is a place for me (sounds like a song, ummmm) and I am at it again, checking the want Ad's daily. Today I found one that wanted a lady to sell sex toys..Oh geeez, I'm just to tired, my heart wouldn't be in it, I'm sure every time someone wanted a party I would get a headache and the sales pitch? I would fall over laughing!! "I'm fired" !!

"IN YOUR FACE" !!!

Well I finally created a Facebook account..I have no idea what I am doing..Isn't emailing enough? I guess not.
So if you take a look and it seems pretty stupid to you , well I guess you have to consider the source. I had a tough enough time trying to load a few pictures in and then suddenly I see all these people on there that I don't even know!! Where the heck did they come from? and are they talking to me?? no, they are carrying on conversations with other Facebookies! I'm sooooooooooo confused!!
Ya see...you open a small door to the Internet and the whole friggin planet wants to come in..GEEEZ!!
I guess it will all come to me after I get instructed how to do it , probably by a bunch of 5 year olds no doubt!
Take care!!

A human life is a story told by God. ~Hans Christian Andersen

JUNE 25th 2009

Like everyone today, I was shocked to hear the news of the death of Michael Jackson. I was shopping for some scrubs for work when Sean called and said he heard it on the car radio ..I thought he was joking..I had just heard about the passing of Farrah Fawcett and this was just a little unreal. Life does turn on a dime and we should live every moment with love, laughter and joy..
When I think of Michael's passing it reminds me a lot of the passing of Diana and Elvis because I think his funeral will be massive, maybe even more dramatic .
I enjoyed his music, he was a great entertainer and had a surreal short life. He leaves 3 young children and a grieving family. Whether you are famous or not, that is sad.
Two entertainment icons died today and it is a date to remember, so I will in print.
May they both rest now, in the loving arms of God.

Michael Jackson, pop music legend, dead at 50 - CNN.com
Actress Farrah Fawcett Dead at 62 - Celebrity Gossip Entertainment News Arts And Entertainment - FOXNews.com


People do not die for us immediately, but remain bathed in a sort of aura of life which bears no relation to true immortality but through which they continue to occupy our thoughts in the same way as when they were alive. It is as though they were traveling abroad. ~Marcel Proust

Go ahead "make your day" with Gran Torino

I watched Clint Eastwood's 'Gran Torino' last night ( Gran Torino ) and I was blown away by his brilliant performance.

Eastwood plays an elderly World War 2 vet named Walt that is haunted by pain, guilt and loneliness. He lives in an area of town that is surrounded by gangs, both Mexican and Korean and he just about hates anyone that isn't American or white. Actually he even dislikes members of his own family , and tends to growl at them. His distaste for people and his expressions were both appalling and made me laugh out loud! Walt is not a likable character. He is downright mean, rude and very prejudice. If you are offended with racial slurs, this movie is extreme, so go into it expecting to be offended, it is his character, and the audience isn't suppose to like him. That's good writing and good acting!

The movie opens up with the funeral of his wife. As Walt stands at the alter of the church he watches his family come into the church and snarls at them and then snarls at the priest. You know then that this grumpy old man has quite a story to tell.

Living next to a Korean family doesn't sit well with Walt and he does a lot of growling their way until an altercation erupts on his front lawn with one of the gangs. Armed with a rifle, he stops the violence with his signature "make my day" bad ass attitude. Walt suddenly becomes the Korean neighborhood hero, a reluctant one at that. It is a mixed blessing because he doesn't even like the people he rescued, they were just on his manicured lawn.

From this point you begin to see a different side of Walt. He starts to open his heart in his own surly, sarcastic and prejudicative way. His demeaning slang can be shocking to hear at times, but it works in this movie so superbly. As the events take place, and the drama of the story unfolds you find that your own dislike for this man start to fade. You begin to understand him, forgive him and actually like him.

In the end Walt looks for redemption and peace and finds it in an unexpected act of self sacrifice.
There are great moments in this movie. There is laughter and shock, deep messages and insight. I really enjoyed the interactions between Walt and the Korean girl next door. She understands Walt and humbly accepts his degrading insults with maturity and humor.

Its rated R for hard core language and moderate violence. I so enjoyed this movie because you come full circle with your emotions. Why is it called Grand Torino? I don't want to get to detailed with the plot for you, just rent it, find out and enjoy, or even growl...."go ahead ,make your day"

MTV Movie Awards

I was channel surfing last night and happened across the degrading, and horrifying MTV Movie Awards. I have always thought that the MTV music awards were bad enough but this award show was the lowest of the low. It was "anything goes" and the presenters, winner's and entertainer's made sure to 'out do' one another with tasteless and obscene humor, F bombs, sexual overtones and gross in your face obscenities(Sacha Baron Cohen, among others) It is no surprise how I feel about award shows (see my older posts) but this one should have been rated and the producer's handed a huge fine.

The movies and actors that were awarded were basically Young Hollywood. I felt embarrassed for them as this young crowd was bombarded by low class toilet humor by their adult peers. I felt a huge disrespect from many actors that I do or did admire . It was almost ridiculous to hear Miley Cyrus thank God in her acceptance speech, I literally cringed! "Oh pleeeease don't even bring God in here, somebody might turn to a pillar of salt!" No disrespect on Miley, her heart was right, but the atmosphere was so anti God that it was completely out of place. As a mother I felt like I wanted to grab everyone of those young impressionable 'kids' and yank them out of there, then ground them for a week and scold the adults!

The online news this morning talks about the "silliness" of the show. Silliness? I would surely use another descriptive word besides silliness. Vulgar, obscene, tasteless, repulsive, but silly? not even close. I wonder how anything good can come out of Hollywood with disgust like this in the face of young talent. They don't have a chance unless they can hold on to some strong ethics and have some kind of moral code. OMG!! I forgot , silly me..Hollywood and moral code in the same breath? What WAS I thinking!! My bad!! click....